Why should I get married?

Hye peeps,,

here I am again in the middle of the nite talking to the wall.........

why do i say tat?????..to me this blog is like "the wall"..because wen ur heart hv a lot things to say,,and nobody could bare to really listen wht ur heartsay..So tat's y I've use to say,,I'd rather talk to the wall than talkin to peeps....which they can hear u but they never listen................

..Why am I talking like crap..like no excitement at all tat I'm gettin married...

Halo??Suhailla,,whats wrong with u???

well,,,hummm I dunno...too many things in my mind now,,,

I wish tat I could have everytin but,,i could only get either one...

So, why i wanna get married n live my life with one man??like forever??

I've used to think,,,when i felled in love..i wanna get married..n the rule is simple;

U CAN DO WTV U LIKE, & I CAN DO WTV I LIKE..

As simple as that...as if...

I wanna be a successful Scientist,,getting title Dr...up to me..

So do u..u can be a successful in ur career,,open bussiness u want,,go where ever u wanna go...

What i meant is that,, when I'm gettin married..i just wanna live with u,,and i still can chase my dream and so do you...So, this is what happiness mean to me...

Let's get married,,chasing our dream together,,be there for each other,,and always support each other...

and makin babies together (???????), and TAKING CARE BABIES ToGETHER....

Work for livin together,,DO HOUSE CHORES TOGETHER..

n..livin OLD TOGETHER...

This is perfect!..

That is why i wanna get married...not to runaway from my life..

I love my life as much as I hate them..but..it's me tho...

I wanna have a husband@soulmate@sleeping partner@BoyfrenForever who love me as much as i love him..

cooking for him,,making babies with him (?????)...taking care babies together,,work hard to live happy together...at the same time both of us successful in our career...tats all i want..

not $$$$.. I need $$$ to live not live for $$$$$.....

At certain point i feel like my life is perfect...

because of him...seriously..he complete me..totally...

he can understand me..all about me..the way I think and all that..

the thing is..our culture..our peeps..just can't accept that..

women has the same right as men does...

women can't get high edu, high paying job, Hell No!!

I've seen a lot of this..from peeps around me..
the wife..they sacrifice everything..taking care husband..children,,house,,work for living..and evrything until they've gone to bed..and wake up early in the morning..and another bz day..this will never stop..
I've seen My MOM(especially),,my colleagues..and I've learnt from them..that male species will never say thank and appreciate female species..why???why??and why???

rite guys..think about it..life is so mean to female...
hmmm..rite then..gtg to bed...so long..bye.

life is not that beautiful.......

Hey all,

One said that,

"Kite rises highest against the wind, not with it"

Does it bang your head when u read this?

dunno bout u guys, but this word of wisdom does bang my head. I've heard this like 2 months ago..from my current boss...and i still think of this thing over and over again..i dunno why but it maybe strike my heart, life and everything...

It means that wtv u dream of in this world is not that easy to achieve it..u have to go through all the obstacles..

basically means that the world is : THE PEOPLE!

yup,,we have to go through all of the people...believe me, who in this world were really sincerely happy for what you have achieve? Ur Folks? they should as they are the one who  rise us...

Our sibling? they might say in their heart " god I should have done better than her!why nobody ever proud what i've achieved, why her?"

Cousins and relative " ya rite, let see how far she can go..i bet i'll do much better than her!"

Friends "Im happy for you dear," whereas deep inside he said " damn, why she always got everything!I should be on her place, not her!"

Im sure 1000s peop out there DON'T agree with me as 1000s people out there agree with me..

maybe u don't agree with me cause I talk like crap, and you are positive enough to think all the people around you will pray for your happiness....

I dunno guys but Im damn sick and tired of all these!

seriously,, all my life people keep misjudge me! all the way till now...

Me,,in my own words...

First impression: I look dumb..(If in WEST side -peop may called me Dumb Blonde)

But people never expect that I'm good in scoring my exam...
"NOT BAD HUH??TOT U ARE STUPID,,CAN'T BELIEVE U CAN SCORE FLYING COLORS!"

I've heard lot of these...

My face features,,

Look like Bossy,Hot-tempered,social,bla,bla,bla

ya rite..I should just say..

YES I AM...BUT.....I a moody kind of person..

once I' mad,,yes I'll show it,,I'll be crazy..

but tats it..im not keeping it in my heart..

I feel relieved once i release my anger..tats it---------

Im not a good Liar..even my face couldn't hide my feeling!!

Im sorry..who felt threaten  with my face!

so now u telling me im a hypocrite? tat is soo not me!

and I can't live in a lie...

Is it so hard to understand me and accept me??

I'm sorry but i'm not perfect

I can't be wtv u expected me to be

I just can't

I'm not forcing anybody to accept me,

never,

If it's meant to be that I'll be alone for the rest of my life,

I accept it,

If nobody in the world can stand me.

DO I LIVE IN A DREAM, or 
LIFE AND DREAM CAN NEVER BE ONE.....

GOD..DAMN BZ..MISH THIS BLOG SO MUCH!

Hey gurls!!
how'll??I'm freakingly bz afta my e-day..
i noe i promise to put up the e-day pix..haha..
as u noe now i'm bak in KL for good..n noe wat it's suppose to mean..
I'm bz wit work n ada free time je dating...hehe...'mentang2 la dokat ajer ngn hubby nyer opis...hehehe..
But today I'm in Kuantan!tah pa per tah..I already quit the job in Kuantan..n some kind of phobia wit kuantan....bole plak SPA put Kuantan tpt exam??
nak dijadikan cter..i x da la bz2 sgt looking for job afta I quit,,
Alhamdullillah rezeki I x putus..the day i quit..without any planning..the next day it self i've start a new job...so x der la menganggur...(rezeki org bertunang kot??) or could be..bila kita dianiaya tuhan makbulkan doa kite..may be lah kot...
so as I remembered last year kot I apply for SPA..
So I pon mmg xda la sebok2 nak cek mail box email smua..
all of sudden bole plak smlm ternmpak surat I..kebetulan my sis rajin bkk mailbox..
dalam hati i..hmmm musti da tlepas..tgk2 eh 16 July..Esok!huh?Kuantan??y meh??
So afta balik keje tat nite shoot g Kuantan..
dlm hati i mls je nak g..x smpat kot nak prepare aper2..
org len siap bli buku smua....
xper lah..i pon rasa cam nak try..redah jer...
leh jln2 kuantan makan ana ikan bakar..sodapnyer sutung!
yay..x titon mlm hokay!
mengong otak i da berkarat..alhamdulillah I've done it!

Ok gurls..I juz nak hupdate jer...windu sgt..

TTYL!

I'm Officially Engaged! Alhamdullillah~

Hye Gurls..
How are today??greaatttttt teacher!..hehe
(yesterday I'm teaching english..so..hehe..poyo!)
Alrite..Alhamdulillah..I selamat ditunangkan with my tunang..
I'm so thankful to Allah..everything goes well...
Can u imagine..3 days before it's raining like cat and dog!!..
lecah banjir everywhere...
I'm so damn worried that I haven't slept for a week!
seriously..
Thank god on the Day..
it was hot sun..nice wheather (eventho I'm a puteri lilin, xsuka panas,tp majlis begini,tat's wat we call a good wheather!)
i'm glad happy,speechless,,,
overall only 48% is according to my plan..the rest..Itot Qada' & Qadar...
tp,,mmg meriah..ske sgt...
13 car from his side..
total guest around 500..
1st round org kampung makan dulu..mmg ramai..
then, my family belah my mom and my dad's side..
then, rombongan lelaki makan,,penuh dua khemah!
tp mmg x kelam kabut..koz time depa mkn,,x da guest lain kacau,,koz everybody da makan..
and they all siap tambah! mintak mangkuk besa nak kaut ikan patin gulai tempoyak!!!
hehehe..
overall mmg seronok sgt...hehe..
I x pat nak share everything in 1 post..I'll upload more pictures okies..
mark my words..
I'm still waiting pictures from our OP..

this is picture from 1 of my fionce cousin...

So Long guys! Miss u!

e-day final checklist 2 days to go!

Hey gurls,,

2 days to go!

Here are the final list:
(all the red font are the updates)

official e-day

Venue = at mama's hometown, Kuala Kangsar

Date = 30th Apr 2011, Saturday

Time = After Zuhur

Total guest = Haven't decide , 300 pax; from his family 15 cars is confirmed!

Save the date for Wedding = haven't discuss we just put it as 1 year CONTRACT!HAHA

Hantaran n mas kawin = hantaran decided and both side agreed, mas kawin still under discussion Mama told them already, HubBee.2 bee still Q about it..haih..

E-ring

white gold diamond ring = HubBee.2.be bought already!

Preparing myself

E-dress = mama's bought me saree , sent to tailor ( bju kurong moden), done! and alter it to fit my body!

Make up = adeq will be my MUA, trial make up I'll make up myself!go for natural makeup!!

Lens = Need to buy grey lens tonite!

Fake eye lashes = find it at home & try, mama already bought a dozen of it found it!need to buy the glue!

Hair = decide to do princess style hair d0, trial hair do with adeq, need to see Jack do hair treatment!couldn't make it!just do sanggul n put up hairband and selendang!

Hair Band = DIY lace + ribbon hair bandx jadi as I will put up sanggul tinggi and bling2 hairband!

Veil = still under considerationBought lace kat Jackel,since it' so lovely,i'm gna make a baju..and will wear selendang as veil.!

mini dais

Theme = blush pink + off white + turqoise

Back drop = off white, mama's bought off white curtain, DIY curtain!done!

Flower = need to buy off white + blush pink artificial flowers cancel!

Ranting kayu = got it at home

Seat = foldable matress, DIY cover- off white with lace

Carpet = off white, got already at my sis hse

Crystal = transparent + soft pink for background will use crytal from kakak's chandelliar!

Small pillow = use what I have in collection, might buy new oneuse what I have!

Hand bouquets = Still under consideration, off white + blush pink cancel!

Hantaran for HubBee.2.be

Theme = Off White + turquoise

Amount = He'll gv me 7 , so I gv 9

Wood Basket = off white, buy 9!cinderella carriage and it's gna be 13!

Ribbon & net fabrics = need to buy 2 meters? to wrap out the basketsmore than wtv i thot of!

Things inside Hantaran = Both side agreed to gv food only , as for wedding will gv fancy stuff!

1. Sirih junjung = petik kat kampong mama

2. Forrero rocher = hv to buy 30 pcs, enough??should be!bought 60 pcs! HubBee.2 be suwuh!

3. Cake = decide to order foundant cake from mama's friends, print the design alreadyPick up tml!

4. Candy = need to buy it a lot!Done!

5. Other chocolate = toblerone??dark choc??yummy! *for me eh??*may be will decide laterDone!

6. Fruits = like grapes and .......dunno yet, kiv Nope!

7.Shirts = may be Bought pink shirt for him to wear on eday! and bought baju nikah as hantaran!

8. Buku Agama = Is he goin to read it?? kivNope!

9. kuih

10.kuih
11. kuih
12.kuih
13.kuih!

Kenduri

Tent = rm100, mama will book it booked 2 tent rm300!

Menu = Will be discuss with mama lauk kampong!

Catering = definitely no, org kampong aje lah

Door gift = Don't need it, mama n mak.2. be don't agree terbeli!!haha..very nice!!love it!yay!

BUdget

USe up all mac n apr salary!GILA!

Is there anything that I've missed??hopefully not!..guys wish me luck..hahaha..tml goin bak and will do last preparation on Friday!
TAFN,,daaaaaaaa~

majlis menyambut menantu -before tunang??

hey gurls..mish blogging so much!!5 days to go!!
arggh..btw..does the title sound weird rite??
it's majlis menyambut menantu sempena tunang,,it's like memperkenalkan I to his family..
owhh i can't sleep ok tat nite..tiba2 feel like majlis e-day ku dipercepatkan!..
too many things to think about..which is:
1.what baju shud I wear? x nak cantik sgt and x nak burok sgt..
2.make up?x nak x pakai lagsung huduh plak nanti,,klu over,,nanti same plak make up mase tunang?
3.baju baru siap kat dlm kete azam,,dia tgal kete kat umah ank sedara dia,,dia g china..
last2,,pakai baju raya!!haha..

I plak kje tat saturday,,so,i da make up siap2,,paki bju kurung,,then afta work stret go to HubBee.2 hse..
masyaallah ramai gler org..mcm nak kawen dah ak rase!


I pakai baju kurng pahang,hitam putih,byk manek2..
pakai selendang jarang,
pakai kasut espadrilles..
make,,natural..sumpah!
i x suka make up natural,tp jd plak tat day..haha
ok la not bad..
hehe,,

sampai2 trus g kat mak.2be..
she introduced me to all her friends and family..
ada plak yg ucap.."tahniah,,selamat pengantin baru!"
huh??i plak blur gler..hahaha..
apa da..


my HubBee.2.be??
wah..bz gler..hahaha,,siap amek cuti tat friday hokeh..
klakar la..it's a great experience..cuma rase pelik..koz everybody like over excited we all nak bertunang..
padahal,,we're just getting engage je..blum kawen lagi..
maybe,,it's a first wedding on his side ..
mine pon first gak,,tp x da la excited sgt..hehehe..


sedih koz i x pat nak bergambar with him..we wore same color black n white okies..
this is the only pikca that I hv,,on my way to his hse..but without selendang koz dalm kete..hehe..panas..

x pakai lip gloss lagi..hik2..tp color lebih krg je..i mmg ske nude color!

last but not least..please doakan everything is fine for my real e-day! 
anybody who read this post..

YOU ARE OFFICIALLY INVITED!!!

Just PM me for the address and all that ok..

Put family first..forget them not!

Hye girls,,just quick update from me..
I tell u,,,chasing happiness is not that easy,,seriously,,
I was the type tat "didn't believe in happily ever after in marriage"
seriously i am...
but, all tat has changed after I'm seeing my dear HubBee.2.be..
and guess wat? not forgetting my lovely mama and papa..
I'm freakingly stress this week..
I wanna gv my best on my e-day preparation..
I wanna do it perfectly how I picture it..
seriously...since I can feel tat for my real wedding will be organized by my Mak.2.be..
so this is the only chance for me to do it like how'd I picture of my dream wedding..
So, as far as u know,things happen not according to wat u've plan..
honestly,,my prepration cost is over my budget already!
my huge challenge is on his family guest..around 100 pax..
As for total guest maybe 300++...
And the menu..not the usual menu..
mama promised to do spesel kampung menu...
like ikan keli sambal,ikan patin tempoyak,ikan talapia and all that..
and not forgetting durian for everybody..
which mean,,extra budget for kinda menu rite..
if u eat this kind of menu at the restaurant..i'm sure it's gonna be 100+! 
yup..And I agree with that menu also,koz i want it to be memorable,,since we do it in mama's hometown..
It's far away ok! kuala kangsar,perak,,
so i wanna appreciate all my guest..
And my budget..HAHAHAHAHA...
So yesterday night I was cried again on my bed...
My parents are divorced...
Nobody is going to help me..
I was helpless..
have to do it all on my own...


And a miracles happen this morning..
Papa text me and he says that he'll bank in for Kenduri Budget..
and my tears are falling again...
and this morning,,mama saids,,she'll top up on wat's papa gave..
and here i am again..crying...


Thanks mama papa,,
thanks for everything..
Love u guys..


doing all the preparation..
actually gives a lotsa moral value..
feel closer to my family..
we all sleep late,,to do all the hantaran..
as best as we could..
I dunno..
eventho my family is not tat perfect 1 happy family..
indeed,we have each other...

Hey girls..
I am so UNsleepable!!haha..
It's nearer! I'm so nervous!
Guess what?My dreams hantaran come true!
I'd always wanted hantaran full of rose flowers and crystal surrounding it..and I want it to be so soft and sweet..and after fight here and there,,explaining to everybody how i want it, Finally yesterday we made it!
Yay!!I'll share with u guys how we DIY it!
hope that i can publish the picture,,but need  to save it for that spesel day to come..okies??
And ya,the door gift also cute and sweet,,Love it sooo much!!
And the best thing is my baju nikah..
not grey,not white,,but..heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
^_____________^


TAFN,,bubhey!

bz, hactic, 3 weeks 3 days to go!!

OMG gurls,,I know I've been busy lately,,
can't catch up with all blogger friends..
mish u guys so much..
promise will update everything once everything is settle down!!
and ya,,to update, this weekend goin to buy baju nikah to put in my e-hantaran!
and guess what..not blush pink or off white...
sooo sad.....
Have to choose grey………….T_T
Sue, nak beli baju nikah warna ape?
mmmm..sue ske warna (nak ckp putih,tp tatot kne reject trus..so belek magazine pengantin, tnjk warna blush pink)..
sue ske warne camnie…slow2 je..

aunty ske warne grey lah sue..cantik…aunty mmg berkenan, mcm induk pon nikah warne grey,,mcm mawi n ekin pun grey..

hmm,,ok,,aunty dr aritu asek sbut grey jer…
Adik mak.2.be: alah sue itot je la,pilihan mak mentua..dah teringin sgt tuh..
Ok lah,,ok lah,,grey..
Ok,,nanti mgu depan kite g beli okay…

Hmm..my mom also saids the same thing..mom said don’t mentioned anything on WHITE! People won’t like it!..
Hmm,,then??try your best make mak2be happy!ok!
Ya rite,,I will..only for solemnization ok..not for my big,,definitely no!!!NO!!!
I want off white, or champagne!
FULL STOP..

career,love and happiness,,I've chose ........

Hye gurls..today is my last day as Microbiologist in RT-Biofarm...
It's hard to left something that you crave for....
between career and happiness,,I can't take both..
Finally I chose happiness..
Money can't buy happiness....

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Seems like everybody's got a price,

I wonder how they sleep at night.

When the sale comes first,

And the truth comes second,

Just stop, for a minute and

Smile

Why is everybody so serious

Acting so damn mysterious

Got your shades on your eyes

And your heels so high

That you can't even have a good time

Everybody look to their left (yeah)

Everybody look to their right (ha)

Can you feel that (yeah)

We're paying with love tonight

It's not about the money, money, money

We don't need your money, money, money

We just wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.

Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling

Wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag.

Okay!

We need to take it back in time,

When music made us all unite

And it wasn't low blows and video hoes,

Am I the only one getting tired

Why is everybody so obsessed

Money can't buy us happiness

Can we all slow down and enjoy right now

Guarantee we'll be feeling Alright.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)

Everybody look to their right (ha)

Can you feel that (yeah)

We're paying with love tonight

It's not about the money, money, money

We don't need your money, money, money

We just wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.

Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling

Wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag.

[B.o.B]

Yeah yeah

Well, keep the price tag

And take the cash back

Just give me six strings and a half stACK.

And you can keep the cars

leave me the garage

And all I..

Yes all I need are keys and guitars

And its with in 30 seconds I'm leaving to Mars

Yeah we leaping across these undefeatable odds

Its like this man, you can't put a price on the life

We do this for the love so we fight and sacrifice everynight

So we aint gon stumble and fall never

Waiting to see this in the sign of defeat uh uh

So we gon keep everyone moving their feet

So bring back the beat and then everyone sing

It's not about the money, money, money

We don't need your money, money, money

We just wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.

Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling

Wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag.

It's not about the money, money, money

We don't need your money, money, money

We just wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag

Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.

Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling

Wanna make the world dance,

Forget about the Price Tag.

TAFN..TTYL...bubhye Kuantan..I'm starting a new life..ohh so soon..